Let me start this post by saying that I want to write this as emo-less as possible. Even if all I'm feeling right now makes me want to crawl under a rock and stay there until said rock crushes me, I don't want to go emo. Rage is a better option, but I'm too sobered up to even let myself fly off the handle.
It's actually hard. I mean, it's so easy dealing with things if you let emotions get ahead of you. Emo people have their cut cut stab stab tiem, angry raging beasts get to beat something up. While I am just sitting in the corner, doing my own business while cancerous thingies chew me from the inside out.
I couldn't even express my own despair properly - like my fail attempt earlier which sent me into utter OTL the whole day, making me kick random things as I walked my way home - so in order to avoid looking like a royal idiot I just make myself...happy.
Strangeways, here I come.
OTL. OTL. orz. Whatever.